Slow Down!

Did someone reach out to Father Time and request that he turn on warp speed or something?! It would seem to me that my littles were much smaller just a short while ago.

The saying “time flies when you are having fun” has proved it’s honesty yet again. Here I was watching my little boy take his first steps just a couple months ago and while I realized he was getting bigger I failed to take note of how much time had actually gone by. Here I am… February 18th, 2016 and my littlest little is turning one year old tomorrow. The mixed emotions (by that I mean emotions mixed with hormones) are absolutely killing me right now. Who gave this little boy permission to turn one year old so soon? Just a short while ago I was in labor with him, I was greeted by his tiny toes and his beautiful face. We watched his big brother light up with joy holding him and I saw love on his father’s face that melted my heart into a big pile of goop.

Now, fast forward to one year later, I have a walking, babbling, laughing baby boy who is nearing the date of his very first birthday. He’s closing in on becoming a big brother. He’s learning what “no, no,” means and also learning that how to say it back to us.

Don’t even get me started on the fact that my first born, my sweet little Baby M is nearing his fourth birthday! For goodness sake, it feels like I just left my job at the pizza shop for my bed rest orders. It feels like only days ago I felt the overwhelming emotion of a mother’s love coursing through me for the very first time. How did I get to this place where I’m about to have my third baby and my other babies are already getting so big?!

Time doesn’t stand still for anyone. Sometimes I get confused when a person finds out I’m having another baby and they say, “you don’t waste any time, do you?” In my head I can’t figure out why anyone in this world would Buddhaintentionally waste a moment of their time. At age twenty three I will have three little boys who can call me Mom. It is astonishing to think about where I was five years ago in comparison or to even compare the life I am living to those of my friends. Most people my age are bouncing between relationships, jobs and college courses. I have an amazing man by my side, two (almost three) little loves to tuck in at the end of each day and I couldn’t be happier to have started my family so early. Now if only time would slow down just a tad so that I can enjoy everything a bit more…


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